A Season of Changes
Looking at these photos that I took last weekend, I feel the stillness in those moments where you're just taking in your surroundings. Trent Park is one of my favourite places to go when I want to be outside, maybe go for a walk, sit somewhere and breathe in everything around me. It will always be a special place to me, it's connected to where my university campus was in my first year until they closed it a few years ago. In spring the daffodils pop up, guiding you by the pathway, in summer everything is green and warm, in autumn it's gold, yellow and brown, in winter it will be all dark and bare. The changes are so subtle when you're in the middle of it, until you look back and realise that you have transitioned from one time to another, without even realising it.
The last couple of months, in particularly October, there has been some changes in my life. They have been some truly extraordinary changes and I did not see some of them coming. That's the beauty of the living, life happens when you least expect it. When the year begun, I felt quite lost in myself and although I slowly started finding my feet, that lost feeling still lingered. Until recently, last week to be exact.
Ever since autumn arrived, pieces started coming together in my head and heart. There have been positive changes at work, all very exciting. It's four months since I've started my first grown up job and we're going through a marketing re-brand and I'm learning so much, being hands on and feeling a sense of achievement. It has taken up a bit more of my energy and I've not been writing, reading and working out as much as I would like but I'm feeling more inspired to make the effort to find the balance. It takes time to conquer the world, one step at a time.
On the flip side I have also practised the act of letting go. There have been some parts of my life that have been around for a while and I had the realisation that they weren't good for me anymore. Then actually taking it into your hands and let that part of you go is literally like a weight is lifted off your shoulders, and you wonder why you didn't do it sooner. It shows there are some things you can't control.
Right now, I feel whole and good in myself. Without getting into the details, there are moments in your life when you know your life has changed and it's for the better. My head is seeing the world more clearly and the enchanted time we are in. All the pieces are coming together and I am looking forward to everything my future will bring. If I could bottle this feeling up in a jar to share with the world, I would. Everyone deserves to feel like their true self and have everything that is true.
Change happens, it's good. It takes a little time but it's part of life. Embrace all that there is around you and the changes that will come.